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Written by Administrator
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Tuesday, 18 October 2005 |
I always dreamed of a fairytale life.. falling in love,getting married
& 2.5 children and live happy ever after.. But for a lot of
couples.. Myself included this does not happen as we plan..
We have
tried for nearly 8 years for a family, the heartbreak that each month
brings, does not always bring us closer together, infact the
opposite..further apart
Although very much in love this does tend to go on the back burner for much of the time.
Our
energy goes into achieving our dream of a family and for the most
part.. love making becomes baby making sex and fertile windows in a
cycle.....
Day 28 brings tears sadness and heartache for both..
While my husband tries to remain strong for me.. I take it the wrong
way and his lack of tears mean he isn't affected.. which in itself
causes problems... Then it's ringing the hospital for the start of the
treatment again.. back on the rollercoaster again.
Nights out become infrequent as we lower alcohol intake dramatically and find reasons to avoid going out with friends.
How
quickly life changes.. our relationship has been pushed to the limits..
so much so that we have made a dramatic and very hard decision...in
another 12 months if we haven't achieved our dream of conceiving we
will be getting off the fertility rollercoaster and calling it a day,
so we can fully concentrate on our marriage.. and have a fantastic life
with or without a family.. we have chased the rainbow for the pot of
gold for that long now... our trainers are worn out..
It will be time
to appreciate what we have got and not what we haven't xxxxxxx
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